Thank you for sharing your story, yes, that decision is the hardest to make. My husband was on a vent several times, his first hospital stay was for about 90 days total, much of the first 60 days in ICU or intermediate care, 30 days in rehab, there were other hospital stays also. It's heart wrenching to watch a loved one decline. And many times the doctors forget about the people sitting bedside. Your husband, just like mine wanted you to be strong, mine told me one time when he thought it was all too much, that he'd be better off dead, and that I should carry on for the two of us. Of course I didn't want any part of that. This isn't easy. I did here of this thing called "Camp Widow" they have one day pop up sessions and also a whole weekend I may go one of these days, Google it and check it out. I too would have been married 30 years this September, and we dated for several years before that. This loss is like losing a limb. I keep telling myself as hard as this is, we became a part of each other, his imprint on this world resides in me. I know there are many days it doesn't feel real, it's still too soon, he passed just last month. I don't think we're meant to get over it, they were too important to us, I think we're meant to carry them in their absence. Keep sharing your stories, on here and with friends. Keep his memory alive.