I was wondering why Im having a tougher time with the test of her family. I talked to her eldest daughter the other day to just touch base. Asking how she felt and how the rest of children are doing, 5 of them from 25-10. Just to let you know her daughter is very reserved and laidback also very timid as well. But her body language and all around attitude; actually her 25-year old brother and her act this way. I was scrolling back my old texts, it broke my heart on how lonely she was, she never wanted to be alone. But what really upset me then and even today, is how her grown children took such bad advantage of her, It makes me upset that her side of the family counted her dead 5 yrs ago. This what I mean by Prepared or unprepared. Her family where just counting the days is what they told me. Aimee had been to the ICU 5 years ago and almost died,They had given her 2 valves. I believe this is when they made there peace. I know for a fact that I'm the only one hurting this hard, I mean I spent 20+hrs with her everyday. I built our relationship from friends to fiance, At the beginning I wasn't even thinking romantic.But she snuck her way into my heart. She was so lonely & sad; as was I. We enjoyed each other so much, I never had someone never get on my nerves or feel like I needed a break. She truly is something special. Her kids saw her rarely expect the 2 that were living with us. The eldest daughter and youngest daughter. But when i moved in I saw how things were ran. Very recluse, till someone wants something, then it's can I have this and that, can I have some money can you buy this, all take no give... They had turned her into a human piggy bank, Only talking to her for stuff. With her mother she's so personable she cares but she was waiting for Aimee to pass, I told her Aimee wanted to live, but they wanted no part of it. They had already been here before. Her dad also confirm this, I asked if my pastor could come pray for Aimee. I was met with "that won't be necessary" surprising me, I had told her mother in private that she wanted to live. Them having power of attorney, from 5yrs ago. They were sure she was going to die then... It's like they saw an opportunity to get rid of a thorn in there side. It just really presents its self that way at least to me... Her mother had even told me that Aimee had stopped calling her because she was no longer lonely. This last year we had grown so much as a couple, growing this beautiful relationship. I guess what I'm trying to say, it is harder for me due to the relationship and my connection to Aimee. The dynamics, the time, the rituals we did together.Also I remember how abusive her last boyfriend was, always cutting her down, calling her names, telling her she will never be loved and she is trash. Mind you, I did the opposite of those things to my fullest, always telling her I how much I loved her, telling her how beautiful she is, how smart she is, what a great mom she is. I always was up lifting her. So I guess now I can see, from thinking out loud the different perspectives. I miss you Aimee- Jonathan S.