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Trying To Cope. I Miss Him So Much.

Discussion in 'LGBT Loss' started by MikeNYC, Apr 6, 2020.

  1. MikeNYC

    MikeNYC Member

    That gets to the thing that is so hard to accept, we can't control things. And every time I think I've worked out something in my mind and an ready to accept that aspect of how things happened, it will come roaring back to be dealt with again. It's like spinning tires in the snow, stuck in place.
     
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  2. PJC

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  4. P'town Tony

    P'town Tony New Member

    I lost my husband/best friend of 30 years on May11, 2020. There's no more laughter in the apartment. His absence is palpable. He was ill for over a year, but we thought we had years more. But he had MSA and died instantly of a blood clot in his lungs, so he was able to avoid the horrific late stages of MSA. He had the best death possible given his diagnosis. But I'm lonely and alone, my first winter in P'town without my boy and even though I don't cry oceans as I once did, the ACHE is the
     
  5. glego

    glego Well-Known Member

    Thank you for your post, I pushed too, and at times I let things slide I often feel guilty for those times that I slipped. If only I could have been perfect for him.
     
  6. MikeNYC

    MikeNYC Member

    I don't know how much it helps, but know you're not alone. I still cry every day, sometimes just once, sometimes several times. A slight alteration to an Edna St. Vincent Millay quote: “The presence of his absence is everywhere.”
     
  7. Woodyismydog

    Woodyismydog New Member

    Your story is very real to me. I am 55 and lost my Husband of 37 years just 4 weeks ago. I brought him home to Home Hospice and after 6 weeks, he peacefully passed away. Although he had been sick for 7 years, I never believed that I would be alone. There was a 26 year difference in our age. I was younger and he was wiser. I miss him every moment and at times feel like he will be coming home. It's a very difficult time for me. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone and hopefully, time will ease the pain. Take care.