I lost the love of my life on January 25, 2017. We had been together 12 years. He was not feeling well while making dinner, he went to bed feeling sick. The next morning he asked me to get him juice ( as plain as day) I walked in the bedroom and he had passed away, I found in on the floor. The Medicall examiner said he died of a massive heart attack. ( we never knew he had heart issues) I am so lost. In the 2 months science I've had to move from our home because I could not afford it by myself, I left my job ( athe a funeral home) not a good place to be after such a loss. I feel lost. My family all live in another state. I just don't know what to do??? I'm walking through life feeling numb.
