my husband committed sucide of the morning on 3/2/20. He planned this with great detail to perfection. He knew i wasnt going to be home late due to a dr appointment after work. I got home checked on him, he appeared to be sleeping so i left him alone. I later went to bed and slept next to him, i woke up and felt him a couple hours later and he was cold and hard. At that time i thought he died in his sleep. When the police got to my house they turned on the light and thats when i seen bim, the blood and a skeleton of the man that use to be. I am so crushed words cannot be used or said being when he died he took the best of me with him. I miss him. I need help i cant sleep im functioning only because i went back to work, but i only function there. I need to find who i am without him and to live without him. My husband left this world with no signs, no note and no clues. He appeared to be himself, sming, laughing and joking around, being his goofy self.