I’ll tell you this site is really helping me. No one in my life get what I’m feeling. I hate when people ask “how are you”? they don’t really want to know. They just want you to say I’m okay, I’m great. Cause if I said how I really feel.. they don’t want to hear that. Here I can vent and say what I’m feeling and it feels good to just write it out. I’m on day five of not drinking. This is big for me. I’m not getting wasted and drunk crying all night being an idiot and getting angry. When I drink I seem to get really angry at her and look for reasons to be mad at her. God I miss her!! I really hope one day I will see her again!!! And I hope she knows how much I love her and I’m sorry for all the stupid fights! All the stupid shit I ever said! And I just love her. And miss her.