1. skies24

    skies24 Well-Known Member

    Not a day has gone by since Jan 22 that I haven’t cried. I go to work but find myself crying at lunch or in the bathroom. I complete my job fine it’s every other second I think of her. I signed up for a medium in two weeks. But now i’m thinking that I should go to see a therapist. I’ve never cried this much. Don’t know what’s normal. When is crying too much a thing?
     
  2. ainie

    ainie Well-Known Member

    You are in the very early stages of grief. I don't think that you can cry too much. I know I still cry almost every day and it is 5 months for me. I read an article somewhere that said grief tears actually have a different composition than other tears and that they are a release of actual chemicals that make us feel bad. I know I usually feel better/calmer after I cry.
     
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  3. skies24

    skies24 Well-Known Member

    I cry a lot at lunch... usually around that time she would text me to see how my day was going. Or vent about her day. I can’t imagine going through this again. This pain. I know it’s a part of life but damn. I was doing okay this weekend then today no good at all. I’m literally trying everything to move on. One step forward 10 steps back. The loneliness is insane. I’m sorry for your pain. This is an awful part of life. It’s so unfair. Give us this person to love, then take them from us.
     
  4. skies24

    skies24 Well-Known Member

    And I agree sometimes after I cry I’m fine... today I’m just angry.
     
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  5. ainie

    ainie Well-Known Member

    Yes somedays, some moments, anger is the emotion in charge...I'm lucky I have no neighbours close by or I would be committed. There are times I yell out because I am angry at the universe for this happening. And Why? Why? Why? is all I can think. Be gentle with yourself and don't expect too much "moving on" so soon in your grief. It takes much longer than I ever thought. But it will happen. Time will pass. The pain will become bearable. HUG.
     
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  6. Bogman

    Bogman Well-Known Member

    It will get better, you said you felt OK on the weekend but Monday was tough, thats how I find it goes, I've been saying two steps forward one step back, the step back is awful but it's still progress over time !? Maybe therapy is something that could be helpful to you but as Ainie said it's early days in your grief and yes tears do feel good afterwards....Dan
     
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