Hello all, I am new to this site. On June 27th 2019, My dad passed away very suddenly from a STEMI heart attack. He was my best friend, half of who I am and he was gone in an instant, So healthy but we had no idea what was hiding. I have a wonderful family and great friends. An amazing husband and two wonderful daughters. But even with that I feel so lost and so alone. I discribed it to my husband as I am sitting in a room and everything is grey, all the color that was once in my life is gone. It has been three months now, and while I dont cry as much as I did (I think simply because Im dried out) I still feel so lost and heavy. Its so funny with grief, When you loss someone people from all over come to say sorry, offer help, food. But come three months later, noone asks how you are anymore. Their worlds keep on going. While Im just stuck. I'm doing all the right things, Im in counceling. I talk with my stepmom and Brother daily to check on them. I talk about him to the girls when they ask because they too were close with him. Im just hoping by being on this site I can feel not so lost. Be able to talk to people who are in this limbo with me.