I lost my fiance in a car accident over 2 years ago. We were supposed to get married and start our lives together 6 months after the accident. He was healthy as a horse, he had incredible faith, and he was a passenger. So it all seems unfair. I know life's not fair in logic but things like this really take the cake. I've been to counseling, church, griefshare groups, and read tons of books to cope with this. While I think I've made improvements in some areas, I feel stuck in others. There's a big gaping hole where he was in my heart. I still feel the loss, longing, and pain. It's not quite as intense but it's always there, nagging at me. I know this won't completely go away and apart of me doesn't want it to because I don't want to dishonor his memory and forget about him. But I would like to be understood which seems to be difficult to find that's unique to my situation.