I understand about not wanting to burden anyone. I’m like that too, I also have a hard time asking for help. But we all need some support. My daughter and I ended up spending Christmas alone, my brother spent every Christmas with us, until Ron passed. A whole other story, but I have another brother, I ran into him mid January, I told him I was alone for Christmas and I almost called you to stop by. He said oh you should have. I didn’t because I don’t want anyone to feel obligated, he said I should never feel that way. Then I felt bad I didn’t. But I bet his nephew would welcome a call. He’s mourning too. I’m afraid the pain lasts a while, but it does slowly become less and less. I’m sorry you didn’t have the longevity, that you two planned, you did have 10 years of happiness, many people don’t experience that. Ron and I were together a long time, I feel I lost my left side of my body and sometimes I feel paralyzed. It’s the closeness we had, I know you feel that way too. Just take baby steps and take care of you. I’m glad our words are helping you a little bit, that’s a nice baby step.