I’m strong and resilient, but after losing my husband in 2015, my best friend the same year, I also lost my mum in February this year and was doing so well ... I met a beautiful kind athletic man a year ago and fell deeply in love, we got engaged in April just to lose him on July 18th. We were so happy and planning the rest of our lives together. It’s really left me stunned. I feel so empty and alone. I’m British and have no family here. The only way I can cope is to work as many hours possible but it’s hard at night when I can’t sleep. Just need to talk about my grief as I know it’s unhealthy to bottle things up.