9 months ago my friend passed away while holding my hand. She fought breast cancer for nearly 6 years. I am so I credibly privileged to have been there at the end to help support her transition over, but my heart is not just broken but absolutely smashed to pieces. I miss her so much. I keep waiting for her name to come up on my phone or social media, but alas I will never see it again. I ring her phone all the time because it means I can still hear her beautiful voice. I need her back, it should never have been her. When I wake up each morning I cannot breathe,it's a nightmare uni can't wake up from.