My husband died in October, we are still waiting for a final cause of death. He was a known abuser of opioids, and had an accident overdose on muscle relaxers in 2017. He had been abusing Xanax that I know of as of late, and we had a fight about it on Saturday morning. I took myself and our then 7 year old son to my parents for the weekend. He was found in a motel on Tuesday morning, dead in a sleeping position, as if he had gone to bed and just died in his sleep. There was nothing in the room, but there was cash in his wallet and he NEVER carried cash. I assume he bought something off the street. He died while we were fighting. I don't know if the final cause of death will bring me any closure. I've been told it could take months for the final cause of death. I just don't know what to do with all my "what if"s.