I lost my fiancé close to two years ago now to a drunk driver. I am still so angry and sad that he has left me here to live life without him. I still am in disbelief that his life was taken while he was home in the states where he should be safe. Sometimes it feels like he is just out on deployment, I know he is never coming back. I am trying to move forward with life I know that’s what he would want I hold a lot of guilt by doing so. I don’t know if I am alone with this feeling or if it’s just not being ready to be involved with someone. My marine was my life my partner my best friend one person who loved me for me unconditionally. I truly feel like he took my soul when he left, I feel so empty and cold inside.