Yup family does not want hear sbout it. Once was enough thanks ! O.k.got that easy enough. It is what it is. Fine. I will get through this and be glad for grief circles. Everyone says," You have to go forward." They have no concept of what it is like to lose a spouse.
My wife Mary lived with cancer and lost on March 26th. 2019. We were married almost 47 years. She took time to list things for me to do after she died. Now I can't even follow that list. I thought I was prepared, nope. I thought I had things laid out, nope. You are so right, no one knows how it is that has not been through it. I have a couple of people I can talk to, really talk to. They will let me talk and cry. I wish you the best on this journey.