I lost both parents in a year's span. Dad was expected/after a long decline, then mom got a sudden diagnosis and passed a few months later in hospice care at home - I took care of her the final weeks. Not only did I lose my best friend, but despite being the youngest, as the only daughter, I found myself handling much of the arrangements in the aftermath. My siblings and I have been navigating all of the things one has to deal with afterwards - and I just returned from finishing clearing my childhood home (that my parents lived in 50 years) - a task I've been undertaking (long distance) a weekend at a time for months. I can't even describe how I feel. My friends don't get it - I know I'm not terribly young (mid 40s), but most of them have not experienced this yet - a few coworkers are actually more empathetic. I honestly feel physically ill. I threw up as I left the house. The move (some of their stuff to my place) left me physically wiped out. I feel like I left my own reality for so long with all that's happened the past few years, I don't remember how to be me anymore. I've managed to handle my job okay, but my larger goals are blurry. I'm single and can't even imagine mustering the energy to do online dating - its like my life sort of hit a big pause. Mom was my best friend and I'm so glad I was able to be there for her, and wouldn't trade that time for anything, but crawling out of the hole that was left behind is proving difficult. The grief itself is lightening - I don't feel as devastated as often as I did at first, but I am just wiped out. Its like I'm so emotionally exhausted I can hardly think. Anyone been in this spot?