I’m in such a horrible mood today. Nobody wants to really hear that five months after my husband has died. They want to see me getting back to my old self. February was tough, then I was better. Today I’m just getting by. I’m listening to my 8 year old son arguing and giggling with his friend. It’s awful that I’m annoyed. But I’m annoyed. Sound is annoying. I have laundry to do. Trash to take out. Dishes to do. No one helped walk the dog today. This just me complaining about life. Saturday was 5 months since my husband died. The autopsy report is still not finished so all I know is he died in his sleep in a motel. I have no idea why or what he was doing there. No answers. Today is cold a rainy. It’s just a bad day.