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Discussion in 'Loss of Both Parents' started by Laurie Ann, Jan 18, 2019.

  1. Laurie Ann

    Laurie Ann New Member

    Hello Everyone,
    I am Laurie Ann. Since 2011 I have experienced more than 10 losses. 3 were to suicide and the rest were from illness. I lost my Daddy in 2011 he had cancer and an enlarged heart. The enlarged heart is what took him from us. and I have to say that was the hardest thing that I have ever been through. My Daddy was my absolute world. The day he passed away was horrible my whole world crumbled and my heart was chrushed. I am a daddysgirl. He always knew just what to say to make things all better. Then a year and a half later my Aunt Wanda who helped raise me passed away. She was my angel on earth now she's my angel in heaven. She suffered so much before she passed I just wanted to take it all from her so she wouldn't hurt anymore she was such a wonderful spiritual woman. She was who taught me about Jesus among many other things. Then in 2015 in March I lost my step mom who Was in my life 28 years to brain cancer. She was a wonderful woman. Her hugs could cure anything. Then 3 weeks later I lost my mom to a massive heart attack. Unfortunately we weren't speaking when she passed and I didn't get to tell her I loved her. We had a rock relationship to say the least. I loved her but she looked me in the face about a month before she died and told me I wasn't her daughter and never would be about a month before she passed. I looked at her and told her she never acted like a mom to me. Which a lot of times she didnt. But I loved her. All I ever want was her approval. I never real got that. Don't get me wrong we had a lot of good tomes together. Then a month later my 26 year old niece took her own life. That one floored me but didn't surprise any of us she was on drugs bad. I didn't even know she existed until she was 15 years old and didn't get to know her until about 2 year before she passed. Needless to say I feel like an orphan. I feel empty and so alone.
     

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