Does anyone else always think damn I can’t believe I’m going to have to go through grief again. I think about is all the time. Sabrine was the first person I lost 9 months ago and now I’m thinking of having to grieve another loved ones eventually. It’s a shitty way to think but I’m thinking why create bonds with people. It’s painful and depressing. Gosh life is hard. I’m dealing with the list of my best friend. And my brother is staying with me going thur a divorce. So he is grieving someone still here which has to be worse. But I don’t know. The heartache of this year is unbearable.