My son Alessandro 31 was killed violently on October 11 th, last month, he was shot while working in his office, I feel like a died with him. He was my baby, he was generous, gentle, giving, he had a heart of gold. I am broken hearted, totally unable to accept and see my life without him. I try to keep it together for my other 2 boys and my grandson.....it is so hard. My mom also is having a difficult time however I can not deal with her pain now because mine is so raw. Alessandro was so present in all our lives, family meant everything to him and now we all miss so much that at times even taken a breath is painful. My heart aches, I can feel the pain physically. I feel split in two, one that is trying to cope, the other whose every body cell is aching and missing my sweet, sweet boy.