My Mother Fixed It

Discussion in 'Coping After a Sudden Loss' started by AgustD, Jul 19, 2020.

  1. AgustD

    AgustD Member

    My sister cut my hair too short.
    What was supposed to be 4in became 6.
    But my mother fixed it.

    My dress tore open from the back.
    The wedding was tomorrow.
    But my mother fixed it.

    I failed a course, I didn’t get the job.
    Again and again one more time.
    My self esteem was at a low.
    But my mother fixed it.

    I woke up crying from a terrible dream.
    Shouting out loud for help.
    My mind was lost.
    But my mother fixed it.

    I received a call.
    My mother passed.
    So sudden.
    My heart was broken.
    My world was shattered.
    No one can fix it.

    Nothing is the same.
    Nothing will ever be the same.
    I am not the same.
    I am broken.
    I want to heal.
    I want to be fixed.
    How?
    The only person to lift me is gone.
    It hurts so much.
    Unexplainable.
    I need my mom to fix it.
     
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  2. Naz

    Naz Member

    AgustD,

    My heart is aching thinking my mom too while I'm reading your post. My mom is my everything. My bestfriend. The only person I can depend on. Then suddenly she's gone. How can I go on with my life without her. I really don't know who I am anymore. The jolly person that I was before has gone too. I became distant with my friends because they knew me as a jolly person but I am not the same anymore and my life will never be the same. I miss my mom so much.

    AgustD, I may not have a comforting words for you but know that you are not alone. I hear you and I understand.

    Naz
     
  3. Jessie_55

    Jessie_55 New Member

    I just lost my mom 10 days ago. It was very sudden..heart attack. I was with her when it happened and I tried to help her but couldn't. She died when she got to the hospital. I didn't get to say goodbye. I miss her more every day. I'm trying to be strong for my dad. They had been together for 60 years and this is so hard on him. He's very sick too with COPD/Emphysema and leukemia. I'm so worried about him too. He's grieving himself to death. I don't know what to do,
     
  4. LouiseP57

    LouiseP57 Well-Known Member

     
  5. LouiseP57

    LouiseP57 Well-Known Member

    I said those words after my husband died in April. I wanted my mom so desperately. She was my rock when I lost my son in 2006 and when my dad passed in 2011. When my husband of 39 years suddenly passed away, I cried for my mom to hold me, comfort me, tell me everything would be alright. I felt so alone. I, like you, needed my mom to make everything better.