more than 3 years...still lost

Discussion in 'LGBT Loss' started by pavika, Mar 14, 2020.

  1. Billfromwa

    Billfromwa Well-Known Member

    You’re already getting there by using this site to vent. If you feel like venting here, go ahead and vent, and don’t worry about the tears. My grief counselor Joanie gave me a saying by
    Voltaire “ tears are the silent language of grief “. Another Hospice counselor told me “don’t worry about tears, she’s earned them. Keep on venting of it makes you feel better. We’ve all been there, and we’re ready to support you.
    Bill
     
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  2. skies24

    skies24 Well-Known Member

    This quarantine sucks! If she were here we would have made it fun. Instead we are trapped in our own thoughts. Reliving every moment. Looking forward to peace for both you and me. Shitty times!!!
     
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  3. MayT

    MayT Member

    I thought I could handle it. I was wrong. Today hit me hard. I drank almost a bottle and and I am tipsy. In a way, it makes it easier to handle the pain because I cannot concentrate on anything. My world is spinning and the pain is manageable.
     
  4. skies24

    skies24 Well-Known Member

    I’m sorry..I wish there was something I could say to make the pain stop. I go back n forth with my drinking. I get it. These times are the worst!!
     
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  5. skies24

    skies24 Well-Known Member

    And being stuck in the house during this virus makes it even more difficult. It’s almost 1pm here and just being stuck here alone just sucks. I miss her every second of every day.
     
  6. MayT

    MayT Member

    3rd week in quarantine. I am getting all my bad habits back. Been drinking and smoking more often these days. One moment I would be ok, then something will remind me of her. Is it really normal not to be able to cry? I feel this pain in my chest and I feel the tears coming but my mind switches it off. They say you feel better after a good cry. I cannot do that. It just hurts so I turn to my bad habits to cope. It is a shitty feeling being like this.
     
  7. skies24

    skies24 Well-Known Member

    This quarantine is a bitch! We have to believe that somehow, someway we are going to make it thur this. I have no idea how. But we will. I wish there was some magic thing to say to make it better. I can’t wait to feel normal again. For what it’s worth, I’m thinking of you and I feel your pain. Hope one day soon this feeling will fade!