My mom passed away on January 16, 2018. She suffered a massive stroke. The Doctor recommended we bring her home and enlist Hospice. He told us that he’d administered many tests and my mom was unresponsive to any of the tests. The ambulance brought her home the following day. My kids and Hospice guided me through the next 10 days. My mom died on January 16, 2018. My entire world changed that day. I took 2 weeks off from work to settle her estate, etc. I’m traveling through the grieving process as I write this. I go to work everyday and do all the things needed but I have this deep pain in my heart and soul. I suppose that’s part of grieving. I have her beautiful photo sitting on my mantle and I can’t look at it without the tears surfacing in my eyes. I just want my mom. The onset of the holidays along with the anniversary of my moms death has me deep in sorrow. It’s so strange because I can laugh with my kids and friends and usually be fine and happy at work but like I said......there’s this deeply embedded sadness and pain that is inside me. I know I need the support and friendship of others. That much I know. Thank you for reading my thoughts. I hope it all made sense!