Mom, 56, died of cancer

Discussion in 'Loss of a Parent' started by Courtneym110, Dec 27, 2019.

  1. Courtneym110

    Courtneym110 New Member

    I was 2 years old when my mom got diagnosed with breast cancer. She was cancer free until the cancer came back four separate times. I grew up taking care of her, I didn’t mind it. I loved her with all of my heart. My father is an alcoholic on drugs, I haven’t spoken to him in three years.. He has been no help at all and would emotionally and sometimes physically abuse my mom and I.

    I am 22, almost 23 in January. I was my moms caregiver. I cared for her until she took her last breath. She was my purpose. Now I feel so lost without her. I have to care for a house, and pick up the role as a full time worker as an aid at a hospital and go back to school in the fall.

    My mom was my everything. She was who I could turn to at any time. She died November 29th 2019.

    Not only have I lost my mom, last year my grandfather died in my arms, my uncle died of a stroke in March, and three days before my mom passed away, my cousin Jillian age 21 passed from a drug accidental OD. I am struggling to stay sane.
  2. riverinohio

    riverinohio Active Member

    I am truly sorry for all of you have been through. Please know you are not alone. I too was a caregiver for my dad and I lost my purpose too. I am trying to go back to school and just rediscover myself. You have had a lot of loss. I hope there is someone you can talk to, a friend to just vent. As a caregiver you are a strong person and I know that right now you don't feel like it, but think of all that you have done at such a young age and be proud and rely on your gut, that you can get through this. What helps me is that I am trying to live my life in tribute to my dad. I am who I am because of him and he would hate to see me destroyed although I must say lately it has been very difficult. Grief sucks. Hang in there.
  3. Knightraven000

    Knightraven000 New Member

    I am so sorry for your loss. I just layed my Mom to rest om Saturday after a 13 year battle with cancer. Your purpose now has to be making her more proud of you and maintaining her memory. That's what I plan to do. I lost my wife almost 7 years ago and finding a support group and going to counseling really helped and I plan to do the same. Hang in there and know you are not alone.