Mixed Emotions after losing my brother

Discussion in 'Loss of Sibling' started by Tiffany306, May 27, 2018.

  1. Tiffany306

    Tiffany306 New Member

    Hello, my name is Tiffany. I lost my older brother (and only sibling) just over 6 months ago. He was 33. He died suddenly in a car accident at high speed.
    I have been struggling with so many emotions since then. I grieve with the loss of my only sibling, who I shared memories, laughs and a love of sports with. But we also had a very complicated relationship and he lied to my family about a lot of things. I have so much anger about how he behaved prior to his accident. And I struggle so much with the questions I have about his previous life and about his accident.
    I also have really been struggling with the impact it has has on my family. I am now my parents only living child. I love them more than the world but their reaction to his death is a lot different than mine. I find it hard to be around them, because they are still quite tearful and react differently towards me (they are more overbearing now, and sometimes make me feel guilty about focusing on the happier aspects of my life).
    I have had such a hard time because I feel like no one I know understands. Everyone asks me how my parents are but no one asks how I am. It is a lot of pressure now knowing i have to take care of my parents.

    Has anyone else had these feelings or struggles? What has helped? Any input is appreciated!
  2. Jaynie

    Jaynie New Member

    Hi Tiffany, I am so sorry aboutyour brother. My brother just passed away a few months ago he had a terrible accident and was in a coma for over a year. I lost my mom 6 years ago, I dohave my dad and am grateful. My brother was my only sibling my older brother I am devastated. I try to cope every day. I would like to talk to you, Jaynie