I lost my sister on April 16. She died almost suddenly of a heart condition that progressed quickly. She was 64 years old. She was also my best friend and best supporter. I really do not have many people in my life and isolate and have trust issues with people as I have known many toxic and unkind ones. My sister was not one of these people. She was a saint in my eyes. I am experiencing increased anxiety and my IBS is flaring up due to this loss. I also live with two roommates, one with a bad temper I try to avoid and another who "borrows money" and pays little or nothing back and I have issues saying no to. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and PTSD. I work from home and my job is the best thing I have in my life right now. Since my sister died, I have had only one good cry. Over the years due to shaming I learned to cry less over things. Crying also gives me headaches and makes me sick to my stomach. I am also the type who does not self medicate with drugs or alcohol because I do not like the foggy feelings it leaves. It would be great to hear from someone.