I don't really know where to start. My husband & I weren't in a good place because of his drug use. He want loving at home because I told him I thought we should seperate. He would stop by & see the kids at least every other day. The night he overdosed he showed up at the house at 3:30 a.m. He told me he just got pulled over & swallowed the meth he had. He said he was paranoid. I let him in. He kept apologizing because he was paranoid. I never thought once he had overdosed. I feel so stupid because I could've saved his life. I left to take my daughter to school at 7:50 a.m. I made it it back home at 8:05. My mom was there with our 2 little ones. She told me she heard him making groaning noises in the bathroom & then nothing. I went to check & he was laying on the shower floor. I called 911. I didn't know he was gone yet but he was. I'll never forget any moment in this day. I just wish I knew. I have so much guilt. Why didn't he say something? Why didn't I ask. I feel so stupid for not knowing. I had 4 hours. I'm so broken.