I don't know if this is the right place for me. I lost my husband on January 21, 2019 to pneumonia exacerbated by cancer and a history of liver transplant and heart surgery. He has been the sole focus of my world for the last 8 years and now that he's gone, I'm completely lost. I miss him beyond words. I can't focus. I don't want to do anything. I've completely lost interest in everything. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and sleep until the pain stops. I have flashbacks to him dying in my arms. I can still feel his cold hands in mine, hear the monitor flatline. I just want him to come home. I know that you can all relate to this loss, so I feel like, by sharing, I'm adding to the grief of others. I don't know what to do anymore. My therapist suggested this site to me (the only useful thing she's done for me), but I don't know what I'm hoping to get out of it. Is anyone else out here adrift with me?