Hi everyone, I just joined the group and I hope and pray someone here can help me try to find some comfort. I lost my husband of 34 years on October 28, 2020 to a tragic car accident. He was 54 years old and his birthday was on on January 7. I am so devastated and I don't know how to live my life without him being here on this earth. I keep reliving that night the medical examiner called me and told me he had lost his life in the accident. That morning he left for work and we told each other we love each other which was normal and I had no idea I wouldn't see my husband again. We have 3 adult children and they are devastated as well. I don't know what to do and I have cried so many tears. This sudden change in my life has left me feeling lifeless as if part of me is gone. I think about him everyday all day and my heart is shattered into a thousand pieces. I feel so alone even when I am around people and I am now afraid to be alone. I just feel like I need to see him or hear his voice. I don't know how to move forward with my life. I loved him so much and I am still asking myself what happened and how did we got here. Please anyone that understand what I am going through please post so I can see what others are doing to get through this horrific time in their life.