My daughter ended her life July 12 2025. The pain is horrible. Does the grief ever get any easier to bear? There is so much blame and guilt from all of us. Her husband who lives in Oregon would not come for the memorial service and blames my husband and I.
I am so very sorry for your terrible loss. A suicide such as your daughter's and my son's always entails so much guilt about our own actions and those of others. Suicide is about learning to forgive ourselves and others and learning to walk down the path of grief in our new circumstances. Life will never be the same as it was before. It will change in many ways. It is so important to reach out to God for His help. Suicide leaves such a heavy burden. It feels as if our chest is going to explode from the pain of it all. Jesus understands pain and grief. When his friend Lazarus died, the scriptures tells us He cried. He is no stranger to deep pain. He was betrayed by all who were his friends in his greatest hour of need. He was willing to come to earth to rescue us by making a way for us to repent of our sins, to ask and receive forgiveness, and to come back into communion with God. The scriptures tell us to cast our care upon Him for He cares for us. He love you and will help you bear the heavy grief you are under. He will give you answers. Since He is the light of the world, He can shine his light on your path and show you how to walk on. This kind of grief is just too much for us to bear alone and God does not intend for us to bear it alone. He wants to help you and will help you if you reach out to Him and ask Him to help. When I thought I couldn't go on even one day and wanted to end my life, he protected me and carried me. I truly can understand your pain because I have been through it myself. Please continue sharing your feelings as you feel led. It may help you sort some things out. We care about you. Chris
