My dad passed away right after Christmas in a work accident. I feel guilty for not telling him to stay home that day because I had a bad feeling about him going to work, and it was right after Christmas anyway and he had no need to work. The week before he passed he gave me a speech about how he works so much so I can go to school. It’s my fault. I feel guilty because I want to drop out. I was 19 at the time and I have younger siblings, so I feel like I have to “become an adult” in a sense but I go to a competitive school and I don’t feel like I can handle anything right now. I can barely get out of bed every morning. I still find myself wanting to tell him news (to show him pictures, talk about good test grades, etc.) and then I remember that I can’t. My family expects me to be over it already, but I was the only daughter so we had a special relationship. I’m doing worse now than I was right after it happened and I don’t know how to become functional again.