My 30 year old son died 3 years ago from a drug overdose while he was in recovery. He struggled with addiction, depression and anxiety for 8+ years. I thought he was doing well.. working, money in bank, planning for future. I was fooled and caught by surprise. My grief and shock were overwhelming but I managed. 2.5 years after his death I started feeling worse. depressed. I relapsed in my own 25 year recovery trying to change the way I felt. I’ve been married for 38 years yet my husband and I had very different ways of grieving and we were not and have not been able to support each other. We are both professionals and buried ourselves in work. We also had different thoughts on supporting our son through his addiction. I’m feeling lost and alone.