My husband died on Monday, December 19th 2016. He was complaining that both his arms hurt, chest pain and then he started throwing up. I asked if we should go to the hospital, he said he didn't want to go anywhere and didn't think he could drive. He told me he haven't taken his meds for days. He was a borderline diabetic and had hurt his back picking up something about a week ago. He didn't like the way the muscle relaxers made him feel so he stopped them to. After feeling sick he drank a bottle of water and checked in the net about side effects if he stopped those muscle relaxers. The side effect was arm pain, chest pain and nausea. So he took one and laid down with me. He was too restless to sleep so went down stairs to play a video game. Not more than 15 minutes later I went downstairs to get him. He had the headset on, mouth opened and I couldn't wake him up. I called 911, followed their directions to do CPR. 45 minutes later EmT showed up and prounanced him dead 40 minutes after that. His death is my fault, I can't live with myself. I am lost waiting to wake up. I take sleeping pills at night and cry all day. I don't know what to do, where to start. I am so sorry I just want him back. Married 24 years and counting. I don't know how to deal with this.