I feel so grateful to have found this forum. Just reading the previous posts made me feel that I am no longer alone in my journey of grief. I lost both of my parents this summer. My mother suffered from heart and kidney failure and was on hospice for several months. It was a long, drawn out process for her. It was so very difficult to watch her struggles day in and day out. I was blessed to be by her side as she drew her last breath. You can never be prepared but I felt like I had time to say the things I wanted to say and spend time with her in very meaningful ways. My father was devastated to be losing mom. He was 86 but relatively healthy. Three weeks after her death he was rushed to the hospital with a massive lung infection. He was put on a high oxygen flow machine immediately so it was very difficult to communicate. It was sudden and his organs started to shut down. Everything was rushed and he sadly passed away two days later. His death literally brought me to my knees. It was unexpected and I am still in shock. I was not ready. I have searched out grief support for losing both parents but until I found this forum there was nothing I could relate to. What I am struggling with most is this feeling ..this emptiness that no one will ever love me as much as my parents, or be my biggest cheerleader or worry about me the way that they always did. I feel unprotected and unsafe. I have a great husband and children so it seems kind of silly because they love me very much. I miss them so much. I am hoping I can receive some advice and learn from those who have similar feelings.