My niece passed away in April of 2016. She was only 7. An SUV hit her while she was holding my brother in laws hand, he is okay, fortunately. I loved her very much. My kids are close to her age and they were all incredibly close, especially my daughter who is 8 months older. My niece was my only sister’s only child. I don’t have any other nieces or nephews on my side of the family. Watching my family grieve has been very difficult for me on top of my own grief. The memories of the hospital the night she died still haunt me, especially at night. It was like the world had caved in on itself. I don’t have any unresolved issues with her, I know she knows I love her. I just miss her horribly. I’ve never experienced such a yearning for someone. My kids seem to be doing okay, and I am hopeful this tragedy will make them more compassionate and loving and not fearful or bitter. I ache for my mother and my sister so deeply. It has been an enormous loss for my family. I also struggle with feeling of guilt that my three children are here when my sister’s only is not. I know all the rational arguments against that, but sometimes my guilt returns. I also feel I fit in nowhere as I am not a bereaved parent or grandparent. I often say there needs to be a bereaved aunt group. I’m hoping to find someone who understands my grief here.