The love of my life, my soulmate, my everything. Had been sober over 15 years. Taking methadone still, mainly for pain associated with 4 back surgeries. About a year ago got a strange rash and started taking Benadryl. Working nights was hard, so he began taking it to sleep then taking it everyday.that night I thought he had a heart attack. Just got the results back, it was an overdose of methadone mixed with a huge amount of Benadryl. I’m broken, I feel guilty, I feel angry I feel lost. I thought maybe this would help.