Hi- I lost my father 2 months ago to metastatic brain cancer that developed from melanoma. He had 18 brain tumors and his 16 month battle with the disease was the hardest thing I have ever gone through until I experienced his death. I am only 29 and my sister is just 27. I feel like we are too young to be going through this loss. My father never got the chance to be a grandpa and he was just 2 years away from finally retiring from his job. This loss is making me question my relationship with my work. My father spent his whole life working and his life was cut short before he has the chance to enjoy his retirement years. My mom recently got a life insurance payment but she said the money is not worth anything now that my dad isn’t here to enjoy it with her. this post is just me rambling. I am in the beginning stages of grieving and my thoughts/emotions are all over the place. this loss is making me want to change my life but I know you aren’t supposed to make big decisions for a year after a loss. So does that mean I should be miserable every day until then? Should I start making changes now?