Hi all I’m new here. I lost my mom suddenly to a brain aneurysm in October and unfortunately got so wrapped up in my 8 month old baby (first time mom) and dealing with affairs that I now realize I have been avoiding and holding in my grief. It’s now starting to come out in the form of physical symptoms overwhelming anxiety, high blood pressure, and stress. I’m not sure what I’m doing or how to grieve. I’m not sure how to open up and let it out like people keep telling me. In the last week I’ve had 2 panic attacks where I will say things like I miss my mom or I’m angry she’s gone when I’m sobbing. These are feelings I didn’t know I had in me until those breaking points. I did one time this week allow myself to cry at work when I felt sad and missed her. id like to learn how to have this come out in ways that are healthy not just when I’m having a panic attack. I guess the general gist is I’m not sure what I’m doing with grief and feeling a little anxious and lost. Thanks for reading.