Ouch, I completely understand 100%. My father who was in his last stages of Alzheimer’s passed just weeks after my mother. She passed on 8/25/19. He witnessed moms passing and was silent after. He just gave up. He stopped eating and wasn’t responsive for 5 days. I was losing my mind at this point. Hospice came immediately after I called and told them that I was losing my mind watching him like this. He passed that night. You are not alone. I feel your pain. And yes 2019 was the most hellacious year of my life. And continues.