It’s been 2 years since I lost my loved one. He was 20 years old at the time. I feel guilt and anxious everyday there’s not a day when he’s not on my mind. I’m young just a teen so I’m not sure how to handle this. I miss being able to talk to him and hear him laugh and smile, I don’t even remember what he sounds like anymore and I hate myself for that. He’s something my family avoids talking about so I can’t even ask them for support or help and I feel like I’m suffering alone. I realise how he must have felt in his life and I hate hate myself for it. How did I not see the signs. I was meant to talk at his memorial but I couldn’t gather the courage to do so. I have so many regrets and I don’t know how to cope. I have nobody to talk about it with and I just feel lonely. I feel guilty for talking about it with my friends and my family just ignores it happens. How can I cope with his death if I can’t even talk about it. please can you give me some tips on how to cope I just can’t do it anymore I miss him so much.