My ex husband killed himself 8 days ago. I keep finding notes and letters everywhere. After we separated we became the best of friends again. It turned out that I was his only friend. He was depressed because he was laid off from work and could not find a new job. Mostly that was due to his former boss thinking it was funny to break a man and blackball him. She told Vendors if they hired him, they would no longer get work awarded. My ex sent a long email of accusations to his company before he took his life. The bullies are currently being investigated. Every note to me says for me not to grieve. For me not to feel guilty. But how can I not feel guilty? I knew how depressed he was. I got him into therapy. Is there anyone here in this forum that has experienced a loss from suicide?