On February 23rd, 2019, my sweet, loving ex-boyfriend was sadly murdered by his best friend whom we actually spent a lot of time with in our relationship. He ended up dating his best friends ex girlfriend, and his new girlfriend drove him to fight his best friend. Instead of fighting, the friend stabbed him and killed him. I wasn’t there, but I picture his death every damn day. We weren’t together, but I lost what I thought was my soulmate. I thought we’d drift back together. I was hoping we’d have the happily ever after we had always talked about with the big family . I feel for his parents but fear they hate me for how the relationship ended. I want to go see them and be there, but am a complete mess myself. Will his mom even want to see me? Do I even have the right to be as upset as I am? How do I move forward. How do I continue to live? How do I move past the anger? How do I forgive this person for such a monstrous act?