i need to know is this normal......

that i spent exactly 2 days angry as hell at him.
then angry at my kids
i found fault w everything
it disappeared as fast as it came on me
i cant believe i was so angry
and its replaced by such sorrow i need to distract myself
also is it normal to feel like you dont want to think of it at all?
not today at least
another time.
Getting out the house was anticlimactic
i need a good movie to concentrate on.

 

Susan, I haven't experienced what you're describing, but I want you to know I'm thinking of you... I'm so sorry that when you needed the support of your family the most, they weren't able to give you their full support. I can only imagine how much this must have hurt. I hope you found a great movie to give your mind a break. Wish that "off switch" was available for all of us! Sending you lots of hugs, wishing you peace, all of us peace.

 

i suppose when i say " i dont want to think of it at all" i mean that i dont want to think about the fact that scott is actually gone. ive forgotten about what i was angry about..that was all me..my emotions are all over the place..but when im left alone i just miss him so much & i realize that hes not just on a business trip & that he isnt ever coming home. thats what im " not ready" to think about.
ive gotten very good at the off switch..it took alot of practice lol