It's been a month now since my mom passed. She was my best friend. The only person in this whole world who actually cared about me. She got sick with the flu middle of January was hospitalized for 3 weeks with pneumonia and blood clots,home for only 2 where I was taking care of her. She was on oxygen, we had visiting nurses and a physical therapist coming to our home. But she ended up back in the hospital and died just 2 days later and I don't know how to cope. She took care of me and I took care of her. I miss her more and more everyday. This wasn't supposed to happen she was supposed to get better. Now I have no one. I am alone. My sister isn't really any help the day after my mother passed she screamed at me for stealing my family's grief, and I was on my own and I had to figure it all out now that mom wasn't there. Our relationship has improved somewhat since then but... My mom was all I had. It was just me and her. We did everything together. I have mental health issues, panic disorder and she was through it all with me. I don't know how to go on without her. Knowing she is not here anymore, that I can never talk to her again, that the house is so quiet without her. My sister says I need to get a life but I had a life. It was mine life with mom and I was happy and content and that is all that matters. I cry multiple times a day and some days I don't even see the point of moving forward. The rest of my family has it seems but my pain is too deep. I miss her too much. All I want is for her to be here.