It’s that time of year again, and instead of being excited for the holidays, I just want it to be over. Last year was my first holiday season without my grandpa, my best friend. But this year feels worse than it did last year. I’m sad all the time, because he loved this time of year. Everything makes me think of him. I know I should try to be happy - for my family’s sake - but I just can’t seem to do it. I don’t feel strong enough to make it through.