My mom died ten weeks ago (five days before Christmas), and I don’t know how I’m going to get through the rest of my life without her. I was her caregiver for nine years and she was my best friend, and many days my only social contact. I have a history of suicidal depression, and in the past would always tell myself I couldn’t kill myself because it would hurt my mom too much. Now that safety net isn’t there anymore. She left without life insurance or a will, and there are substantial medical bills I can’t pay. I can’t even pay for utilities and food for a whole month, let alone my estate lawyer. I just don’t know what to do. I miss my mom so much it hurts.