Not even sure where to start... I lost my husband (married 5 years next week, together 15) last week unexpectedly to massive heart attack while camping over 4th of July weekend. Now that all the fuss has died down, it feels so lonely. I know friends miss him, too. I feel compelled to act happy so I’m not just a painful reminder of what they are loosing but I’m just not sure I can.... We just moved from a condo to a larger home in December so everywhere I look is full of memories of projects we did and the life we were promised. We actually had fun in quarantine, we enjoyed every second of getting to be here together and now that is gone. While everyone has been amazing checking in and helping with phone calls, etc. I’m just not sure they really understand how bad this hurts and I’m not sure I can tell them. I know everyone’s journey is their own, but where do you even start to cobble together a new life?? The idea of ‘future’ sounds awful. Would love to connect with anyone that understands.