I am so sorry for your loss. I find so many of our members asking lately, how do I go on? It's just so hard to know when something so tragic and so painful comes so suddenly. I think the only thing you can do is live - one minute at a time, one hour at a time. In the beginning it's about just getting through it. Nothing else. Find support, let others know you need help, and don't try to do this on your own. I'm glad you are here with us and hope we can be some help~