My companion of about 10 years passed away 4 months ago. He lived alone and suffered cardiac arrest and died almost immediately. We had initially considered marriage but after some time settled for companionship. He always told me I was his best friend, confidante, mentor and that Noone else understood him better. We shared a lot of things and spent a lot of time together but couldn't take the relationship higher because he had a tendency of cheating now and again. I accepted that we would remain companions though there are times we had differences over his ways. In spite of all this he insistediI was the only one he wanted to be committed to. He had a condition called deep vein thrombosis for one year and I gave him all the support he needed while his family didn't. Now he is gone some of his family say he was not going to die alone if I hadn't been in his life. He was going to find someone else. One went to the extent of saying maybe he suffered the cardiac arrest because of our relationship. They are giving a very exaggerated version of our ocassional differences. Now in addition to mourning the loss of a departed friend I have these bitter feelings. It's killing me.