Hello. I have been a member of this forum since 2018. I lost my husband of 48 years in 2018, to cancer. We were highschool sweethearts, anf soulmates. We had a wonder, amazing life together raising 2 great sons. I moved back to Ohio, after his death. I bought a house and in 2019 I met anf fell in love with so eone I went to high school with. It was his second marriage after a divorce. We married and he moved in with me. We married on December 24 2020. After being married one year, we both had Covid. I survived, he did not. I am so devastated going through this loss again. The loneliness is unbearable again. This really is testing my faith. I have been through this , but I still feel as if I cant breathe.... the heart break is profound. I constantly ask God, why. Why me, why again ? I just cant even think about the future right now. Ijust cant believe this has happened to me again, and so soon after I was fortunate enough tofind a second love in my lifetime.